The fact that I homeschool, cook, and don't have a filthy dirty house amazes them. While I bask in their praise and envy, their awe of my daily grind also makes me very uncomfortable. Because I know what they don't know.
I don't have it all-together.
Almost two weeks ago, I started this "Journey to a Better Me". In response to my self-inflicted pep talks, to-do lists and openly honest lack of accomplishment, I have received an overwhelming amount of positive feedback.
Thank you for that.
I realize I've struck a chord with many women my age. I'm putting in writing, for all the world to see, what most of us are only thinking in our heads.
I don't have it all together.
While many of us struggle with consistent reminders of our ever-present imperfections, I would like to comfort you with this fact. That woman who you are idolizing as the perfect wife, or the talented homemaker, or the all-inspiring supermom... She doesn't have it all together either.
I know this because many of the women in my life, who I have put on that pedestal of flawlessness, have willingly stepped down to admit my view of them is only a mirage.
For these women, I am so thankful...
- the woman who told me that she has always felt insecure about the fact that she provides no financial contribution to her household
- the woman who expressed feelings of inadequacy every time she steps in her friend's house
- the woman who admitted she forgets to pray
- the woman who confessed to a satisfying addiction to Coca-Cola ;)
- the woman who called to tell me she too has faltered in her walk with Jesus
- the woman who texted me a picture of her Morning Prayer Routine
I am especially thankful for the woman who, the day after my first "Journey" blog post, reassured me that every woman feels the way I feel. I didn't believe her at first. But now I do. I hope you do too.
While we may not have it "all-together", we are all together in this journey. I find comfort in knowing I am not walking alone.
I pray this knowledge is comforting to you as well.
I can do all thing through Christ who strengthens me.